inside me a lunatic sings

if yesterday was a beautiful day i'm not sure what we can describe today as. glorious maybe? i'm laying in the sun listening to the fantastic new sigur ros album my sis got me for my birthday. it's perfect. lazing on a sunny afternoon. in spite of the stress and the nonsense, thank god i'm not at work.

it's a beautiful day (and no-one's gonna stop me now)

so the search goes on... have been ups and down as far as positivity goes in the last couple of days, but today's ending on a reasonable up - in spite of the fact that somewhere i interviewed at yesterday were due to be emailing me some homework to do and they haven't. which really isn't the end of the world. i think maybe we both reached the conclusion that it was the wrong candidate for the wrong role at the wrong place. something just didn't click with it. i came away less than enthused and i'm not going to be losing much sleep over that one. but had a couple of meetings today with agencies who were enthused and optimistic and that's been kind of infectious. tomorrow i'll give myself the day off from searching, being my burfdy and all. it's been a beautiful day today which always helps. one of the agencys was up in the west end and i was running a bit early so got off the tube and did one of my favourite walks, over the hungerford bridge and up towards trafalgar. stopped for a bit of sushi by the river for lunch. i wish i'd have the camera with me. i was obviously so relaxed i ended up slipping a huge cup of water all over the table when i got the agency, but i don't think they have a 'clumsy' column to mark against on their paperwork. been listening to the secret machines album again while writing this. it's weird. i like it. hope they come over here to tour soon and that i've got a bit of money for a ticket or can finally find something worthy of my ticketmaster vouchers.

the walls are starting to crack

hello adoring public. once again, i'm been neglecting my audience and no written in here for ages. not that anyone's noticed so there ya go. turns out, just for a change, i have something to write about. last week, i got made redundant. which sucks. it's the first time in (what i loosely refer to as) my career that i've not been the one making the decision about when it's the right time to move on. which, granted is debatable whether i've always made the right decisions in the past. but that's pretty irrelevant. so here i am, gainfully unemployed. job hunting's a full time job, you know. the panic's not setting in quite yet, i have a months notice before the well runs dry, so am not applying to pizza hut quite yet. give it a few weeks tho and i might be a bit more worried. in the meantime, have been busy tarting up my 'business' website and portfolio and firing off cvs and things. one meeting with a recruitment agent on thursday and waiting on a return call about one position tomorrow. i should keep an up to date record of how it all goes. but i guess i should be busy with more proactive things instead of that. i have been to the gym every day this week so far, so if i can keep that up i'll be a) in good shape for the holiday we booked before the buggers made me redundant (assuming i actually get to go!) and b) more likely to make money whoring myself on a street corner if all else fails. everyone's a winner. in other news, the new secret machines album has leaked and it sounds rather good so far. all the worries when brother thingy left haven't amounted to a huge let down. in fact, it's sounding a lot more meandering than the last one. which is a good thing.

who wants to be a millionaire?

what a nice way to start the week. the first email in my inbox on a monday morning is from the national lottery with the very exciting subject line: congratulations, you've won £1,200,000. if it wasn't for the fact that i do the lottery online and love sending u emails about things, i would have dismissed it as spam straght away. but there were a few seconds between reading the subject line and getting as far as the address to reply to which, somewhat unlikely, was @msn.com where i was quite a bit better off than i was when i woke up this morning. sadly, that bubble didn't last too long. we live in hope though...