silent Valentine

Still here. Slaving away on lots of work, good to be busy. 3 Weeks in. it's gone quickly but a tiny part of it really. Missing my man a lot at the moment. He's in the jungle so off the grid. Feeling perky and productive. The work nonsense is turning to something of a motivator. Work life balance heavily in the favour of work at the moment but every little helps. Mid fringe binge. It's good, managed to pick up mostly what the hell's going on after 2 years. I need to be a bit better at doing my spanish, I've been slacking off that a bit recently. being a domestic good today I made salmon en croute and some flappy flapjacks. all good things alex doesn't like.

an eye for an arm and a leg

So, the main news is that my stupid health plan won't cover my op, which means starting the while process again on the NBA. Which will probably end up with the same procedure carried out by the same doctor with the same outcome, just without the small factor of shelling out £4k. Not much of a choice then. In other news, the next ice age begins any minute now. Time to stock up on sausages and beans. Tonight wad the first might where I've not had anything planned since the adventurer departed. I probably should have done some work but hey ho. Watched paranormal activity instead. Not necessarily the best idea when you're home alone but it was a bit of a damp squib. still creeped me out enough to have shut myself away in bed (door closed though so safe from the demons). New national discovered this week to which was nice and BSP ep2's in the post. All good. Been good at writing to Xander, though don't think he's received anything yet! Sleep time now, knackered and up in the morning to do done work. yawn

surging call, the winter charge

Brrrr, it's chilly. Winter is upon us. this blog has quickly begun going the same way as my previous attempts, trying to keep up with it though. Been busy, working hard, freelancing hard, time's whizzing by. All of it is a bit self-consciously busy. Almost looking forward to a couple of days without anything booked in to do. Spoke to the adventurer on the phone which was a very nice surprise. Still strange, I think it will be for the next week or so before phase one begins. I think it's harder knowing he's a bit homesick and not being able to do a lot it. Should be finding out tomorrow when the op is going to be, and should also make sure that it's going to be covered! That's all going on with a lot of momentum. Which is probably good as it doesn't give much time for thinking too much about it. Need to be good at writing (and getting the letters in the post). And work out how big a package I can send and get something in the post. Freezing so off to get to bed now.

Where pigeons beat their wings

Got home today to a card from the adventurer, courtesy of funky pigeon. good old them. I sent him packing with a few of their cards on standby for upcoming occasions. They have awful adverts admittedly, but at least they're not moon pig. That was a nice surprise. 2 days in and it's been a but funny, still slightly in denial about it all, though because I'm feeling under the weather anyway I miss not having someone to tell me to stop wallowing and being a hypochondriac. Doctor visit today not done a lot to help that but hey ho. Probably not writing this and catching up on sleep would be the best thing I could do, so I'll save the rest of my profound offerings till another day. Night night.

alexander set out on a great adventure

it's been a long time since i've written in here. but the next couple of months might be something to write about, so i'm resurrecting this today.

alex jetted off this morning - although almost managed to go without his travellers cheques. i'm grateful for that though because it meant a sad goodbye turned into a funny one. my flight tracker app says he's currently circling Newark.

today's been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. it's easy to forget that we're not going to be seeing each other for 3 months. THREE MONTHS!?!? in a lot of ways it's not that long really. today it seems like a lifetime though.

it's partly just him leaving, but also feeling under the weather today. and have been for the past few days. maybe it's lack of sleep. maybe it's stress from the last week and the big departure. alex would be (and has been) accusing me of being hypochondriac. perhaps he's right. will give it a few days and see how it goes.

since dropping the boy off at the airport, went into chessington to buy my annual pass and then have done a tax return and a bit of work. it's all go here!

this blog is a displacement activity from finishing off a bit of work and is working so far. there's also an ominous pile of washing up hiding behind the wall. who's going to know about that though.

he's at 800ft now, so on the ground soon. though not too long before he's back up into it again.

so this is christmas

once again, i've been appalling at keeping this thing up to date. it's not even as if there's not been anything worth writing about for the last couple of months. having lost and job and found another one. having a little trip to the sun last month (gratuitous pictures of which are on the photos site - which I've just noticed there isn't a link for on here). but it's xmas now. work's as quiet as a morgue (no, that's not what the new job is) - which probably explains why i'm actually blogging something for a change. the halls are decked. the tree is up. the shopping is more or less finished. the turkey's in the fridge. i'm having a crack at xmas dinner this year - which should be fine. after all, it's really just a roast dinner with the added pressure of ruining everyone's xmas is you fuck up. so the giggle of redundancy lasted about a month in total and i managed to find a job who were nice enough to let me take the holiday we'd booked. which was fantastic. lots of lazing around. a nice accomodation upgrade. a few too many german nudists but you can't have it all i suppose. maybe a new years resolution, not that i really believe in then, could be to post more frequently on here. but we all know that's not going to happen. perhaps a quality not quantity system could be applied like on the moblog, but that'd probably mean posts would dry up completely. ho ho ho hum. see you in 2009 

while you're away, my heart comes undone

inside me a lunatic sings

if yesterday was a beautiful day i'm not sure what we can describe today as. glorious maybe? i'm laying in the sun listening to the fantastic new sigur ros album my sis got me for my birthday. it's perfect. lazing on a sunny afternoon. in spite of the stress and the nonsense, thank god i'm not at work.

it's a beautiful day (and no-one's gonna stop me now)

so the search goes on... have been ups and down as far as positivity goes in the last couple of days, but today's ending on a reasonable up - in spite of the fact that somewhere i interviewed at yesterday were due to be emailing me some homework to do and they haven't. which really isn't the end of the world. i think maybe we both reached the conclusion that it was the wrong candidate for the wrong role at the wrong place. something just didn't click with it. i came away less than enthused and i'm not going to be losing much sleep over that one. but had a couple of meetings today with agencies who were enthused and optimistic and that's been kind of infectious. tomorrow i'll give myself the day off from searching, being my burfdy and all. it's been a beautiful day today which always helps. one of the agencys was up in the west end and i was running a bit early so got off the tube and did one of my favourite walks, over the hungerford bridge and up towards trafalgar. stopped for a bit of sushi by the river for lunch. i wish i'd have the camera with me. i was obviously so relaxed i ended up slipping a huge cup of water all over the table when i got the agency, but i don't think they have a 'clumsy' column to mark against on their paperwork. been listening to the secret machines album again while writing this. it's weird. i like it. hope they come over here to tour soon and that i've got a bit of money for a ticket or can finally find something worthy of my ticketmaster vouchers.

the walls are starting to crack

hello adoring public. once again, i'm been neglecting my audience and no written in here for ages. not that anyone's noticed so there ya go. turns out, just for a change, i have something to write about. last week, i got made redundant. which sucks. it's the first time in (what i loosely refer to as) my career that i've not been the one making the decision about when it's the right time to move on. which, granted is debatable whether i've always made the right decisions in the past. but that's pretty irrelevant. so here i am, gainfully unemployed. job hunting's a full time job, you know. the panic's not setting in quite yet, i have a months notice before the well runs dry, so am not applying to pizza hut quite yet. give it a few weeks tho and i might be a bit more worried. in the meantime, have been busy tarting up my 'business' website and portfolio and firing off cvs and things. one meeting with a recruitment agent on thursday and waiting on a return call about one position tomorrow. i should keep an up to date record of how it all goes. but i guess i should be busy with more proactive things instead of that. i have been to the gym every day this week so far, so if i can keep that up i'll be a) in good shape for the holiday we booked before the buggers made me redundant (assuming i actually get to go!) and b) more likely to make money whoring myself on a street corner if all else fails. everyone's a winner. in other news, the new secret machines album has leaked and it sounds rather good so far. all the worries when brother thingy left haven't amounted to a huge let down. in fact, it's sounding a lot more meandering than the last one. which is a good thing.